MIA Explanation… ;-)

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SURPRISE!  We are expecting TWINS!  Are you as shocked as we were? ha!  So this is *mostly* why I’ve been missing in action lately.  Right about the time I decided I was going to make blogging a priority in my day(read: during naptime), we got the surprise of our lives!

I started feeling funny mid January, so I got up the guts to take a test and it was negative.  Relief.  Addilyn was still nursing every 2-4 hours around the clock…yes, all. night. long.  So we definitely weren’t planning on adding a newborn to the mix any time soon.  But God’s plans are far better than our own.

Still feeling funny, took a test on February 2nd, which also happens to be our engagement anniversary and it was….positive.  We were shocked.  So shocked.  But really happy and excited.  2 days later I started bleeding and things really weren’t looking good.  Went in for some tests and my progesterone levels were low, which can be a sign of miscarriage….but my beta levels were crazy high and more than doubling every 2 days.  When I got off the phone with the nurse regarding the beta results, I jokingly said to Scott “Maybe it’s twins?!”, mostly trying to lighten the mood because it surely seemed the outcome wasn’t going to be what we wanted it to be.  I started supplementing with progesterone(which looking back, is most likely what saved the babies, because my levels were not high enough to support a pregnancy) and continued to bleed for 2 weeks.  We went in for our ultrasound around what we thought was 7 weeks, but we didn’t actually know.

I had been praying and speaking life over the baby in the 2 weeks I had to wait for the ultrasound.  Praying God would protect him/her and that everything would be fine.

I was so nervous.  Scott and I lost our first baby so I know what an empty gestational sac looks like and I was so not ready to see that on the ultrasound screen again.  I really don’t like attention and I really don’t like people feeling sorry for me(dumb, I know), so when we went into the room, I told the ultrasound tech that I had been having problems and wasn’t expecting a good outcome.  I just didn’t want her to be super apologetic or something and make me feel even worse.

As soon as she began the ultrasound, I was thrilled that I could see ‘something’ in that dark space called a gestational sac.  That gave me comfort, and after just a few moments of her poking around, I knew exactly what we were looking at.  The ultrasound tech says….”that’s interesting….do you see anything different?” and I said “well, it looks like there two!” and she says “yep, and they both have heartbeats!!!!”  I can’t even really explain how I felt.  I was expecting bad news, but not only did the baby we were hoping to see, have a heartbeat, we got a bonus baby with a strong heartbeat too!  I think I just said “oh my gosh….” and Scott and I were looking at each other in total shock.

We went on to talk about how the babies are diamniotic/dichorionic which is basically the best/safest kind of twins you can have.  It means they have their own sac and placenta.  Praise the Lord for that!

Here I am 13 weeks pregnant with twins and I couldn’t be more excited.  I have moments where I feel overwhelmed at the thought of caring for two newborns while still taking care of Addilyn, alone.  But I know I can do it and we will figure it out as we go 🙂

And no, this is NOT an april fools joke 😉 But today is Addilyn’s birthday!  I will post more about her birthday party soon!

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37, 38 and 39 Weeks

Yes, I’m getting lazy and writing the last 3 weeks in one post, mostly because there isn’t much to report!

39 weeks and I feel like a whale–ha!  Baby is measuring great.  Weight gain is at 30lbs(yipes!)  I was 2-3cm dilated, 70% effaced and -2 station at my appointment this week.  The midwife swept my membranes in hopes to ‘push me over the edge’ as she put it–nothing as of yet.

38 weeks and we got the carseat installed this weekend!  Scott has been so sweet and is realizing just how close we are to meeting our girl.  He has prepared himself to help me during labor and is really ready for it.  He has been really sweet to me lately(he always is, but especially this week) and kind of ‘clingy’, constantly hugging and kissing me.  It’s really sweet.  I’m not sure if it’s just the excitement or the realization that we are going to be parents in just a few weeks–either way, I love it!  He keeps talking about how he can’t wait to hold her and I love that!  Still feeling good this week.  I turned 25–yipes! lol  My belly measurement is magically “perfect” again, I guess Addilyn had a growth spurt or was just scrunched up in my tummy the past few weeks!

37 weeks and feeling good.  Declined the pelvic check, since they seem pointless.  You can be dilated and stay that way for weeks or you can not be dilated and go into labor that day–so strange.  I was measuring small so they did an ultrasound this week.  They estimated Addilyn to be 5 lbs and 7 oz, which is small, but in the normal range–the midwives aren’t concerned.

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39 Weeks and 3 Days…

…and boy am I exhausted!! You Mama’s out there are probably laughing at me, thinking the hardest part is yet to come—and I get that.  But this ‘labor could start any minute’ thing is driving me nuts!

I have been so blessed to have such a wonderful pregnancy.  I really can’t complain.  I wasn’t very sick in the beginning, we got our girl we were hoping for, she has been healthy every step of the way and I’m been feeling very good.  Until I hit 39 weeks…something changed.  I feel like Addilyn hit a growth spurt and there isn’t enough room for her anymore!  I literally went from feeling fine on Sunday, to totally ‘whale-like’ and yucky on Monday.  I decided I would take some time off work this week, in order to give myself a little break before she comes.  But I went to work on Tuesday and the amount of people that said “no baby yet?” or “you’re still here?” or *with a very sad face* “how are you feeling??” was INSANE!   I am miserable.  It’s hard to sit, lay down, sleep, eat…breath…haha, you name it!  I’m so thankful that I am just now experiencing all those things, because I know a lot of people experience it the whole time–so praise God for that!

It doesn’t help that I feel like my nerves are shot.  Like I said, the constant ‘unknown’ of when labor will begin is driving me NUTS!  I’ve been experiencing occasional ‘pre-labor’ contractions, some of which are quite painful, but it never turns to anything consistent–it just fakes me out.  Scott is extremely excited about meeting Addilyn and he is SO ready, so I feel like I am letting him down every night when he gets home from work…like he was hoping for a phone call that I was in labor but got nothing…ugh.

At my appointment yesterday I was surprised to hear that I was 2-3cm dilated and 70% effaced!  She is still at a -2 station, which is high–but obviously I am heading in the right direction!  The midwife ‘swept my membranes’, which caused some cramping and contractions for a few hours, but then it subsided.

Scott prayed over us at 11:30pm last night, just before bed and shortly after I felt a few contractions…but then I started panicking and worrying because I had taken a long walk earlier that day and tried to take a nap afterwards but I couldn’t–and I was worried if labor had started last night that I wouldn’t be well-rested enough to handle it..ugh, it’s always something–needless to say, the contractions didn’t continue :-/

So here I sit.  Just waiting and praying that I will go into labor soon…I know I’m not even at my due date yet, which is Monday–but I am so ready to have my baby girl in my arms!!!

Any advice on how to cope with this crazy last part of pregnancy? I would love to hear it!!

36 Weeks!

Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along? 36 weeks! Really?!  I can’t believe it!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 20 lbs. (at least, it’s probably more, I’ll know for sure this wednesday)
Maternity Clothes: Yes!  
Gender:  Girl! Addilyn Murray
Movement: Lots of movement.  And I realized this week that some of the feelings I thought were her moving around are actually braxton hicks–go figure.  I didn’t even realize it, I kept thinking it was just her sticking her butt out really far or putting a ton of pressure–but’s it’s actually little contractions…crazy!  
Sleep:  I’m sleeping like a b-a-b-y!  I’m soaking it in too!
What I miss: Nothing!  I’m feeling very sentimental this week and emotional about the pregnancy coming to an end.  I’ll be full term next week and the thought of this amazing journey with Addilyn being over makes me sad.  I know that my life will be SO MUCH better once I can hold her in my arms–but I’ve loved every minute of being pregnant.  I’ll miss the bump and the glow.  And just the joy that comes from growing a little human inside of me!  I’m so ready for her to come, but I’m sad my pregnancy will be over soon.  It was such a fun and exciting time–I’m already looking forward to doing it again!
Cravings: Nothing crazy, I’m really loving citrus this week as well as chocolate! 
Symptoms:  Braxton hicks contractions, which aren’t painful at all…feels pretty cool actually, lol.  
Best Moment This Week: Having our maternity photos done!  They turned out so beautifully and I can’t wait to share them!
I had my GBS test done last week and it was negative, which I am happy about–I didn’t want to have to deal with the antibiotics and what not.  Also, my cervix is closed but 50% effaced.  I’m not going to have them check me again until 38 weeks…so we’ll see what happens in the next few weeks!

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35 Weeks!

Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along? 35 weeks!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 17 lbs. 
Maternity Clothes: Yes!  
Gender:  Girl! Addilyn Murray
Movement: Lots of movement.  Seems like she has switched from her back being on my left side to it being on my right.  That changes where I feel all her kicks and punches–she is just keeping things interesting!
Sleep:  Better than the last couple weeks.  Besides the frequent potty breaks!
What I miss: Bending over without moaning…ha!  It just comes with the territory I guess.  Getting things done is just not as easy as it used to be–but that’s okay!
Cravings: Nope, no cravings. 
Symptoms:  I’m feeling pretty great this week.  I discovered that the more I do the stretches and exercises our doulas suggested, the less pressure and back pain I have.  So I’ve been trying to set aside time to do them multiple times throughout the day and it’s really helping!  Somehow it hurts more to lay down on the couch than to be up on hands and knees doing cat stretches.  Blessing in disguise maybe? 🙂
Best Moment This Week: I have a few best moments this week.  We had our meeting with the 2 doulas that will be ‘on call’ during my labor.  It was great to get to talk about all of our desires for the birth–luckily we don’t want anything out of the ordinary and we won’t have to put up any fights at the midwifery center to get what we want.  What a blessing!  We also went to eat with Scott’s Dad and stepmom this week and I really enjoyed talking with them.  Scott brought up how I’ve had a positive outlook on this whole process and we truly believe that is why my pregnancy has been so smooth and such a joy.  I think perspective is everything and that you can change a situation based on your attitude and feelings towards it.  I could have “wallowed” in the yucky morning sickness, but I chose to downplay it and pretend it wasn’t there.  I have very fond memories of the first trimester–queasiness and all!  Same for every stage thus far.  Do I have back pain? Yes, is it in the end of the world and do I have to tell everyone in sight?  Nope. And when people tell me “sleep now!  because you won’t get any once she’s here” I say bring it on!  I may get exhausted but I don’t want to take any one of those night feedings for granted.  I want to wake up and say “Thank you Lord for this beautiful blessing…”  That was my Mom’s perspective when she had her 4 children–and maybe that is where I get it from.  I asked her recently if she had any problem with post partum depression, to which she replied “I had the opposite!  I felt sorry for everyone else in the world who didn’t have this baby…” How awesome is that?  She also said she used to lie awake at night and wait for us to start to fuss so she could go get us and feed us.  I want to have that very same perspective!  And I want to pass that on to Addilyn and pray for generations of happy, thankful pregnant daughters and granddaughters!

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34 Weeks!



Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along? 34 weeks!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 17 lbs. 
Maternity Clothes: Yes!  
Gender:  Girl! Addilyn Murray
Movement: Feeling strong kicks to the ribs, sometimes it takes my breath away–literally!
Sleep:  Not great.  Lots of late night trips to the bathroom which interrupt my sleep, otherwise it’s good!
What I miss: Sleep!
Cravings: Nope, no cravings. 
Symptoms:  Still having some wrist pain in my wrists, primarily my right though.  Lots of pressure.
Best Moment This Week: Going to our last natural birthing class.  The last class was just for the Mama’s and it was great to really connect with the ladies and be able to ask lots of questions without feeling weird in front of the other husbands.  It was bittersweet because I really enjoyed the 7 weeks with the birth educators.  They did a great job of keeping the class fun and yet VERY informative.  I feel SO MUCH more prepared now, call me crazy, but I really cannot wait to go into labor!

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33 Weeks!



Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along? 33 Weeks and cannot believe it!  Time is STILL flying, everyone tells me it will slow down near the end but it’s still flying so far!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 15 lbs. 
Maternity Clothes: Yes!  
Gender:  Girl! Addilyn Murray–Finally decided on her middle name!  Murray was my grandfathers last name.  He passed away from lung cancer when I was just 7, but I think about him so much.  He had such a kind, gentle and caring spirit.  I’m sad that Scott was never able to meet him, I know they would have gotten along so well.  I know I was young when he passed away but I really knew him well.  He meant a lot to me and my whole family–can’t wait to tell Addilyn all about him and the reasons why she was named after him! 
Movement: Still strong movements with more distinction as to if it’s a foot or hand.  I’m loving it.  I always rub her little foot when I feel it sticking out!  She usually pulls it back in–maybe she is ticklish? haha
Sleep:  Not great :-/ Lots of potty breaks and I’m feeling SO MUCH pressure.  I guess thats what happens when you are growing a little human! ha.
What I miss: Sleep!
Cravings: Nope, no cravings. 
Symptoms:  Frequent potty breaks and heartburn! LOTS of pressure.  My pubic bone hurts—youch! Not sure what that is about, I’ll ask my midwife next week.  Also I started having wrist pain in the past week, not sure why, my hands aren’t swollen or anything.  But it’s a tingling, pain…I’ll ask about that too.
Best Moment This Week: Going through all the sweet things we got for our shower.  Washing all of her clothes and putting them away.  Makes my heart happy to feel prepared and ready!

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32 Weeks!




Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along? 32 weeks(writing this at 33 weeks because I am SO behind! Argh)

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 15 lbs. 
Maternity Clothes: Yes!  
Gender:  Girl! 
Movement: I started being able to really see a foot or hand sticking out of my belly!  Her movements are not as sporadic and definitely have more strength behind them.  It seems like in the 2nd trimester her movements were more explosive, like BAM! Kick!  And now they are more like slow, strong pressure from a foot, leg, knee, hand–whatever.  I like being able to feel her moving like that, I feel like we can connect a little when I can rub her little hand or foot from the outside 🙂
Sleep:  Not great :-/  Too many potty breaks in the night to be able to get comfortable.  Also, I’m feeling a LOT of pressure really low this week and it makes finding a good sleeping position really challenging.  Anything for our Addilyn though!
What I miss: Sleep!
Cravings: Nope, no cravings. 
Symptoms:  Frequent potty breaks and heartburn!  Some pressure.
Best Moment This Week: Our baby shower!  My Mom and 2 sisters gave me a great baby shower with some close friends and relatives, it was so sweet(more on that to come!).  We were blessed with a lot of nice things but I feel like there are still so many things we need–I was trying to be conservative with my purchases early on because everyone told me not to run off and buy a bunch of clothes and things and now I am kicking myself for not slowly searching for deals over the past 7 months or so…That’s okay though, we will get everything we need in time for our girl’s arrival, I’m sure 🙂  I found a really nice second-hand baby shop here locally and I’m super excited about it.  They had a ton of nice things for really cheap.  I’ll probably visit there a few more times before Addilyn arrives and of course more after she is here 🙂

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31 Weeks!

Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along? 31 weeks(writing this at 33 weeks because I am SO behind! Argh)

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 15 lbs. 
Maternity Clothes: Yes!  
Gender:  Girl! 
Movement: Lots of movement, I can feel her feet in my ribs now!  The midwife I saw this week confirmed that she is head down–thank goodness! 🙂 I know she could still flip, but I am thankful she is head down already.
Sleep:  Pretty good recently.  Taking lots of pee breaks in the night though!
What I miss: Nothing this week.  I’m feeling great!
Cravings: Nope, no cravings. 
Symptoms:  Frequent potty breaks and heartburn!
Best Moment This Week: Scheduling our maternity portraits with a local photographer.  I’m so excited about it and I just hope I can find something cute to wear before the big day!

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30 Weeks!


Pregnancy Highlights:

How far along? 30 weeks! The BIG 3-0!

Total Weight Gain/Loss: 12 lbs. 
Maternity Clothes: Yes!  
Gender:  Girl! 
Movement: I think she flipped!!!!  After making the discovery that she was laying transverse, I followed the exercises/stretches on spinningbabies.org and saw a chiropractor and I *think* she flipped!  My pelvis was misaligned which was likely causing the round ligaments to be tight, thus forcing Addilyn into a weird position(transverse).  But I think it’s better, I felt movement really low in my pelvis as well as in my ribs for the first time…can’t believe it worked!
Have I mentioned how strong her kicks are?  My GOODNESS this girl is tough!  Sometimes it’s so uncomfortable I have to jump up from wherever I’m sitting and refrain from letting out a yelp, ha!  I love it, but my goodness, this girl has got her Daddy’s karate-chopping genes!
Sleep:  MUCH better after seeing Dr. Tiffany!  My back pain is completely gone and sleep is much better!
What I miss: I miss my waist…ha!  Of course I wouldn’t change a thing about being pregnant, I love it so much.  But I had lost 25 lbs just a couple months before I got pregnant and I was so enjoying my ‘new self’.  I’m very much looking forward to spending this spring OUTSIDE going on walks with my beautiful baby girl, getting my “old/new” body back!!!  I wouldn’t change anything though, PRAISE GOD for this amazing miracle happening inside of me.  I can’t wait to meet this beautiful little blessing!
Cravings: Nope, no cravings. 
Symptoms:  No more back pain thanks to the chiropractor!  Now if I could just bring myself to go see her as often as I should…$40 every visit is a downer.
Best Moment This Week: Going to our 3rd trimester class at the midwifery center.  Blaire did the class and I loved the way she spoke about what a beautiful experience it is.  Made me want to cry, knowing that Scott and I will be experiencing that SO SOON!  Her description of the overwhelming love that you feel for your child—ah! I just can’t wait!!