…and boy am I exhausted!! You Mama’s out there are probably laughing at me, thinking the hardest part is yet to come—and I get that. But this ‘labor could start any minute’ thing is driving me nuts!
I have been so blessed to have such a wonderful pregnancy. I really can’t complain. I wasn’t very sick in the beginning, we got our girl we were hoping for, she has been healthy every step of the way and I’m been feeling very good. Until I hit 39 weeks…something changed. I feel like Addilyn hit a growth spurt and there isn’t enough room for her anymore! I literally went from feeling fine on Sunday, to totally ‘whale-like’ and yucky on Monday. I decided I would take some time off work this week, in order to give myself a little break before she comes. But I went to work on Tuesday and the amount of people that said “no baby yet?” or “you’re still here?” or *with a very sad face* “how are you feeling??” was INSANE! I am miserable. It’s hard to sit, lay down, sleep, eat…breath…haha, you name it! I’m so thankful that I am just now experiencing all those things, because I know a lot of people experience it the whole time–so praise God for that!
It doesn’t help that I feel like my nerves are shot. Like I said, the constant ‘unknown’ of when labor will begin is driving me NUTS! I’ve been experiencing occasional ‘pre-labor’ contractions, some of which are quite painful, but it never turns to anything consistent–it just fakes me out. Scott is extremely excited about meeting Addilyn and he is SO ready, so I feel like I am letting him down every night when he gets home from work…like he was hoping for a phone call that I was in labor but got nothing…ugh.
At my appointment yesterday I was surprised to hear that I was 2-3cm dilated and 70% effaced! She is still at a -2 station, which is high–but obviously I am heading in the right direction! The midwife ‘swept my membranes’, which caused some cramping and contractions for a few hours, but then it subsided.
Scott prayed over us at 11:30pm last night, just before bed and shortly after I felt a few contractions…but then I started panicking and worrying because I had taken a long walk earlier that day and tried to take a nap afterwards but I couldn’t–and I was worried if labor had started last night that I wouldn’t be well-rested enough to handle it..ugh, it’s always something–needless to say, the contractions didn’t continue
So here I sit. Just waiting and praying that I will go into labor soon…I know I’m not even at my due date yet, which is Monday–but I am so ready to have my baby girl in my arms!!!
Any advice on how to cope with this crazy last part of pregnancy? I would love to hear it!!